
There are moments after I post something here that I’m tempted to return and hit the delete button. Was that too much? Was that inappropriate? Will there be ramifications for writing down one of my thoughts or experiences? But then I try to slow myself down, to not live in reaction mode, but to sit in whatever it is happening at that moment that has me questioning myself or has me drifting into fear mode. As long as I am being authentic and honest, as long as I am not looking to throw someone under the bus for the sake of feeling better about myself – that always backfires! – then I can and must give myself the freedom to write what my heart leads me to share.
So just let go. Let go of how you have thought everything has had to be. Let go of needing to direct with a strong hand the unfolding of what’s next. Slow down for a moment to see what is in this moment, just this exact moment, not earlier, not what is coming tomorrow. Is everything okay? Is there anything you can do, right now, to make this moment good? This moment of good will lead to and influence the potential for the next moment of good.
Sometimes we are not in a position to make a big gesture, but there is infinite power in one positive moment that can quickly becomes a dozen, then a hundred and before you know it, thousands of bits of good. This can add up to big change. Like when you hear of that overnight sensation, the overnight success? No, that was thousands of small efforts that finally added up to something.
So don’t get overwhelmed by the big picture, the steps you’ll need to take next month or next year. You are not there yet and most likely are not equipped with all you will need to be armed with to step into that decision, those actions. Give yourself grace regarding this, otherwise the steps that are too big for you in this moment can easily paralyze you, preventing you from acting on the possibility that exists today.
Maybe it’s getting out of your head for a minute. My head is always planning, analyzing, predicting, working overtime to figure it all out so I can live in a sense of safety. If I were to look back, very few of those well thought out road maps where ever driven down. Seriously. So right now I’m reminding myself to live today in today, with faith that doing so will lead me in the most authentic and nature way to where I’m supposed to go.
Exactly what I’m struggling with–“how I thought my life should be.” It’s nowhere close. “Embrace the life that is trying to work it’s way into your consciousness”–Thank you for the reminder. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for finding the words I am unable to find.
–Penne
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